Truth

I have also realised why I have been finding it hard to blog. It is because I am not being honest and opening myself up. I am not comfortable sharing things with people but I must if I want people to trust me and open up to me.
Last week I had an appointment at Institute Bergonie ( the hospital where I was treated for cancer ) Bordeaux. Months ago during follow up tests from my illness something showed up in my right breast in a mamography. I was called back for a scan but nothing showed up. After a lot of humming and harring the doctors decided to check me again in 6 months - which was last week and all is well.
There is something very familiar and comforting about going to this hospital and having these tests - it was a safe place when I had cancer and everyone was looking after me. But now I have to let the cancer go, it does not belong to me and it is not who I am.
Its funny because I would much rather talk about you, not me but I need to truthful more about who I really am and what I am feeling to attract people who have had cancer or have cancer so I can follow my heart and support them.
I wrote this post the same day as the below one saying I was finding it hard to blog, the day before going to the hospital and I had already filled in the all is well bit. Sorry it took me a week to post it.